9\23\11 - My words from September 23rd, 2011
Hello all! (The two or three readers who will actually read this...)
I wish to welcome you all back to my blog, which has not been fully taken care of, obviously since this past Winter. And I feel so ashamed because it's now been like 10 months since I've posted. To be fair, life has been hectic and my personal journal is lacking proper ramblings as well. So please do not feel left out!
I started this blog with the full intention to keep everyone who cares updated on the ever-changing shades of my life and mainly it has been a cathartic release for my simply little brain. I feel like the life lessons never stop, and boy have I endured my share this past year! I've moved around several times, (even had my own studio for 6 months, and severely struggled), had another car crap out on me. You know, 2/4 ain't bad... the other 2 I wrecked myself so I can only blame myself for those auto mishaps.
Now I am currently living with my lovely family members (who shall remain nameless for their own sanity and well let's face it mine too) and their fabulously crazy 3 boys. The ages currently are 6 1/2, 4 1/2 and 10 amazing months old baby B! They give me such joy and such grief as the eldest child loves to act like a 12 year old. It's like "Holy cow, stop growing into a preteen!" And the middle child is as sweet, funny and silly as ever. Baby B is just crawling all over, teething like a madman, and got his first ear infection just this week!
In between the times I'm not working my "normal/mediocre" job (See Kate Gosselin's latest GMA interview, lol) I am watching the brood, cleaning and laundering and all that goes with being a domestic auntie. Currently I'm enduring a nasty sinus infection and the one day break has been helpful, though I wish I could help out more. And by help out I mean doing the household chores that no one simply cares about.
I have to be completely honest when I tell you that I used to be lazy. Not very lazy but just in general. I now see why rinsing the dishes and putting them in the empty dishwasher is vital to keeping stress reduced! I cannot cannot cannot cook or relax until the kitchen is clean. And ugh, let me tell you, no one here uses 1 glass a day! I'm further looking into my own betterment and one of the ways I overcame my negative laziness was to find a model and listen closely.
Much of the modeling has come from my own birth mother who does always keep a neat house. The other model has for the past 2 years been Kate Gosselin. If you know me, you know I have a thing for famous people, and only certain ones for that matter. I'm not going into the details of why I'm a fan or supporter of the Gosselins because that is a blog in and of itself. I just know that I am grateful for a not so perfect model who in fact is a healthy one!
I have always said I want a large family ("just like 7 or so, adopted, fostered and perhaps one I birthed myself... maybe." To be exact!) and one of the ways I can get there is to improve myself. I know there's a lot of work ahead of me, but I am not a quitter anymore. I'm a winner and I want to win the race! I have to thank God for being my biggest fan and never failing to be there. For without Him, my world would absolutely crumble and I would be dead. For all the times I've wanted to just literally die, he's picked me up and been the voice in my head saying "Keep going! You have a wonderful future ahead of you. The only way to get there is to endure the good and the bad times!"
I pray you all are doing wonderfully and enduring your own good/bad times with perseverance and grace! Shine on my lovelies. :)
Love, Light & Peace,