Winter Has Arrived

On this day, a gorgeously dreary Monday, it has been snowing here in Kansas City and in many other places in the U.S. A lot of Northeast of the States got rain and sleet while many just up North got snow and ice. It is now 2 p.m. and the sun is slowing making its descent into the milky Grey sky. People all over this area are either working, running errands or kids are anxiously waiting another hour before school's out. I however, am snuggled in bed with a slight headache.

I do have to admit that watching it snow was very pretty from our view at the Founder's Plaza at Arrowhead Stadium. We were a little frigid but had a blast. I have to tell you from Thanksgiving Day on, we've been busy around our house preparing for this cold, frosty weather. I've prepared two soups for days like this and they were Eggplant Parmesan, which we have eaten twice in 3 weeks and then Turkey Veggie soup. I believe it's just about time to put it on the stove for Soup Day. This also happens to be my house cleaning day.

So after the last loads of laundry are finished, I'll be in the kitchen for a little while warming up. And then I'll be able to get started on my winter craft idea, a brag book! I'm planning on using my scrap booking materials and photos to create some nice little gifts and just to keep me occupied. There's nothing more peaceful to me on this Earth than creating!

Have a blessed day!
Love, Light & Peace,
Jolee

Pray & Pray More

It's bee just a little while since I've posted anything of substance here and I thought I'd break the spell! I have a night off so to speak, I still need to do 2 more loads of laundry. Scratch that, it's 3 loads and it's 11 pm! I might just have to put it off until early morning. I did run several errands today with my lovely wee grandmommy. She went out in the wild today and just barely made it home.

I have gained much from learning to navigate negative environments and it will aide me whilst serving others. I am taking on more and more responsibilities as I progress and one of those includes not only paying bills on time and in a quality fashion, but taking out time to reach out to those in my community who are struggling. I have been studying different volunteer organizations and I've networked with a few people while on the clock as a patrol agent with CSC at Arrowhead Stadium. I can proudly say that Thanksgiving morning will be spent with Tyler, my 4 year-old nephew, and I serving elderly at a local shelter for these aging lovelies.

I believe his adorable dimples will be sweet enough, but he's already taken up the job of handing out beverages such as milk, juice and tea. I'm certain this gorgeous boy will grow up with some sense of what it means to help out. I want my nephews and someday, my own babies to learn from my responsible and productive example. I pray that my marvelous creator will provide me with even more opportunities in the future to prove my assertiveness serves a greater purpose.

Speaking of prayer, I've been doing a lot of that lately. Just whenever I think about it I think in a loving tone. "Lord, thank you for keeping me safe on my way to and from my destinations daily," "I pray you spread your love and tenderness around those I love and those you think of as deserving." I also pray for guidance, as explained in "Dear creator, I'm seriously suffering an emotional block right now. Please guide me with your love and patience, and provide me the correct actions and/or words to deal with this rough reality." That's probably been the biggest and most significant as of late.

There are many out there who experience immense difficulty just surviving every day. These people walk miles and miles while starving, literally and they don't complain. I pray for their country's speedy recovery. I pray they find peace on Earth!

I pray for you, dear reader and for your happiness to remain within your heart and soul. I pray we fulfill our purposes together and with a united stance. I want for us to bind our differences and show the world the compassion we share for one another. Let's get out there and really DO something. I want to be an example to all those willing to watch. I want to be a model of health, happiness, perseverance and diligence.

I look forward to your feedback and I'm interested in all you have to share. Thanks for reading! And Happy Thanksgiving!!!

Love, Light & Peace,
Jolee Summerville

Being At Arrowhead...

What is having a job at Arrowhead Stadium like exactly? I'll do my best to tell you with the next series of photos I've captured while on the clock.


Early morning glance of the field level.


Good morning Arrowhead!


This is the first stop on my tour of duty. On game days I'm in that large, poorly heated tent for about 3 hours.
(Pictures coming from inside soon!)


That's me. Sipping on coffee and not trying hard to be cheerful, even at 7 am!


This leads you from the Tower Gate entrance to the VIP elevators and Broadcast Lounge as well as one of Levy's kitchens.


Levy's makes a fantastic spread and occasionally they'll share with us security people.


This is from the Broadcast Lounge's perspective.


 If you go up the elevator to the 4th floor you'll find our Club Level. And trust me if you don't have club level tickets, we'll find out.There are also escalators to get back and forth from both levels.


If you follow the right directions and you were told to be here for a special dinner, such as UMKC held a few weeks ago, you're going to get a treat!


Chances are you'll see the exclusive Hunt family suite. Or the entrance to it rather.


It looks like this over at the Founder's Plaza on the opposite side of the stadium. By the way, those flowers are for the Concierge desks. They change weekly.


They have some lovely smelling eucalyptus lotion in these middle level restrooms.


Really, it's too much I know. I believe a white button down and black from the waist down is perfectly acceptable. That tie has got to go, therefore, so does the poorly cut blazer!


This is what a typical suite box looks like on the 4th floor. This is the same level as the Hunts' suite.


They're ready 5 days beforehand for the Pitt St vs Northwest this Saturday at 2 p.m. They're making me come in at 5 a.m. It's so cruel but still, so much fun!

So there's a little bit of what to expect in a day's work at Arrowhead as security. It's great for networking and connections. And the pay's not bad either. I'd look into it if I lived near or in Kansas City.

Love, Light & Peace,
Jolee Summerville

30DC - All's Well That Ends Well

I am finally at the end of my blogging challenge which I'm not exactly sure what the goal was. Was it to not procrastinate or to not cheat? Not exactly sure about it, but perhaps it's all about what your personal goals are. I'm told this is exactly what this last post is about.


I'm supposed to share 20 goals and a photo of myself. I'm not exactly sure how to word all of my goals since the seem pretty menial. I guess that's why they named it a challenge?! Here is a recent photo of me, and I'm going to share with you my goals.

1.) Schedule more work
2.) Make more connections
3.) Think more positively
4.) Do even more for others
5.) Create a specific and workable budget plan
6.) Get involved with more volunteer groups
7.) Attain more college credits
8.) Learn a new skill
9.) Learn a new language
10.) Retain living space
11.) Take care of a living thing
12.) Communicate what's necessary when necessary
13.) Be more steady with writing in journals
14.) Finish Blogs on time :)
15.) Sing more
16.) View more plays
17.) Think about further into the future, more often
18.) Finish a Blog?!
19.) Continue smiling
20.) Count blessings multiple times a day

There you FINALLY have it. Almost 2 weeks after the day the Challenge ended... I post the darn thing. Well thanks for sticking around to read them! I appreciate the feedback and all of your wonderful stories.

Love, Light & Peace,
Jolee Summerviller

Cold Weather... & More!

Here come come the sniffles, the mittens and gloves and best of all, scarves and boots. Of course with Christmas arriving I find it difficult to refrain from adding to my wish list! But I know that this season is all about giving and so I'm very focused on making that a reality for many others in this residential area. I'm excited to announce I'll be working in close proximity with 2 organizations this Autumn in order to prepare for several charity events, Arrowhead Stadium and Truman Medical.

One job is through my very own workplace and the other is very nearby thankfully, and is proudly a volunteer position. I'm hoping to hear from others about what their plans are for this Holiday season. Whether it's about spending more time with family, donating time to strangers or if you're like me and work all around the holidays, it's all wonderful! I plan to capture a few memories over the next few weeks via photographs and videos. So stay attuned and I'll have more about that soon.

For now as work continues to be in session in the office and out in order to prep the stadium with appropriate security staff for the Pitt State Vs. Missouri college football game and then another Chiefs game. I'm always busy within the stadium whether it be myself guarding a floor somewhere on Club Level or in the office filing employees paperwork. What a never ending process it is to establish a system and sticking to it! Or on game days you can find me very early at admin handling "costumes" or work gear as CSC calls it, or in the ever frozen Pavillion where a pal and I check ID's for specific private parties. Whatever I'm doing, I am super grateful for the opportunity to work.

I just pray the Lord keeps me safe as I travel, even though it's just 10 minutes to work and back, on the slippery, wet and sometimes snowy, wintry Missouri roads. I forgot to mention that they're filled with hills and I drive a little, tiny Saturn. I'd like to share with you my drive way. And the rest of my surroundings. I've been walking in the frigidity the past few days off and captured some really marvelous photos.



This is a shot across the street from our house.




 This is around the block from my location.





A side view of the lovely yellow fellows in the front galleries.



More to come soon from my marvelous nature walks. I'm off again to guard some mysterious event for Arrowhead security  this evening. Blessed be all and be merry!


Love, Light and Peace,
Jolee Summerville

Passion For Others

Compassion is sometimes the fatal capacity for feeling what it is like to live inside somebody else’s skin. It is the knowledge that there can never really be any peace and joy for me until there is peace and joy finally for you too -- Frederick Buechner

 This quote brings me so many questions. 

I wonder if the author meant that it is fateful that you'll feel 'what it is like to live inside somebody else?' Or did he simply mean fatal as relating to the definition of destructive? I personally think it is enlightening to feel what others are experiencing. It's a rare and spiritually fulfilling thing to be connected with someone enough to bond their vibe with yours. 

It feels perfectly normal to me to refrain from making contact with others through eye contact and gestures such as smiling, using manners and being polite. But then at some point I realize I've isolated others by my own doing and that's why I'm lonely at the moment.  The desire for companionship and - compassion for sure, usually doesn't take long to subside.  It's easy to resume the cycle of noncommunication. 

These days though, I'm feeling that when I go out of this house, I'm presenting my self and my image of who I am to the universe. I need to continue on in an upbeat attitude with smiles for everyone. It's easy to remind myself how atrocious it is that others are not as fortunate as I am. At this moment I am a productive lady of society as I pay my taxes, I vote, I work as security, and I volunteer. I'm happy, healthy, safe and loved. That is what puts my mind at ease. All I can do is worry about what I can control.

I must deem appropriate behaviors that bind well with which circumstances and I must excel at that. I have to tend to my responsibilities as a human so therefore, I cannot think about everyone all over the world and their situations all of the time. If I could, some might consider me as Godly and that I am not. But I do feel its necessary to assume that I spend a valid amount of time praying for, researching about and advocating with those who are in need of assistance. 

I'm hoping others will look around this holiday season especially, the winter months, and see the abundance of help wanted all around them. It doesn't just come through a form of money, but your rewards extend much farther than material belongings. I'm looking forward to spend some time with the elderly this fall and winter to ensure they keep busy as well as donating time in the Toys For Tots event here in K.C. 

There's plenty of work to go around, we just need more kind, beautiful souls willing to give some effort to the game!as always blessed be, you're loved and most appreciated for reading and contributing feedback if you so choose. 

Love, Light & Peace,

Jolee Summerville

30DC - Day 29 - What's Learned

"What's learned is often forgotten" I always say. For many of us it takes many lessons to learn the same thing. And in some cases, you have to physically endure the lesson in order for it to keep ingrained in your mind. I'm one of those kinesthetic learners suffice it to say and I am one who needs to learn via experience.

I have learned so much over the past year and it's nearly impossible to recall everything but I will tell you a few things I've learned over the past 30 days at least. I've learned that I'm ever changing. I am evergreen as a BSB song of the same title states. I am always willing to try new things to enhance my living adventure. I'm planning on being able to tell people my story and have them marvel at the things I've done.

I'm pretty late in the game for a lot of things. I've just recently started cooking almost every evening and learning new meals. I'm so hesitant because I'm the only person here eating organic foods and it seems it's hard to get people to eat turkey and chicken these days. They all want beef! I am trying to keep the pounds away and stay healthy. The only thing blocking me would be beer and wine every Wednesday and Friday at the local hangout RG's.

Anyways, I've learned I have a lot of perseverance in me I didn't know I had until this past month. I just keep going and going no matter how exhausted I get. I am used to getting home safely even after days I've spent long hours at the stadium or running errands. I enlist my coffee and granola bars to keep me energized while dealing with such difficult days.

I have also learned how to relax on things I know I cannot necessarily control. I do know I can control my emotions and no one else can. So I've been determined to keep the peace and have fun especially while at work. It's sad that many people hate their occupations/jobs and return home miserable. I'm actually loving what I'm doing and I pray my creator keeps blessing me with even bigger and better opportunities.

I hope you've started your own 30 day challenges and I also hope you can keep up with updates better than I have! Most of all I send you love and pray for blessings upon you.

Love, Light & Peace,
Jolee Summerville

30DC - Days 26, 27th & 28th - Catching Up

I've been quite absent from the blogosphere the past few days largely in part to the fact that I've been focused on working and earning that paycheck. It is such a commodity these days to receive a steady flow of working assignments so when they call I jump on it. I'm currently doing laundry just to catch up and have uniforms ready the next 2 days and boy it's going to be a loooooong weekend. I'm prepared to work two 13 hour shifts!

Anyways, enough about work. I will now pause and take a moment to share with you the past few challenges. Day 26 asks me to tell you places I want to visit before I die. I have so many wonderful places to choose from so I'm going to make it simple and say "Out of America!" That's my biggest goal in life is to travel to new countries, experience new cultures and embrace the differences we share.

Day 27 requires of me to tell you why I am currently partaking in the 30 Day Challenge itself. I got the idea from Ali, a sweet high school friend of mine and I decided it would be a lot of fun and that I would learn plenty about myself during the days. I found out that even though procrastination is my middle name, I also have a bit of a slacker in me as well and perhaps you must not leave out, forgetfulness should be added via hyphenation! I promise it wasn't because I wanted to, it was merely just out of plain silliness. I didn't schedule it on my to-do lists and thus, is the reason I couldn't complete it in a timely manner.

I did try my best only slipping two or three times. (Laugh) I know. I'll do better in the next challenge! I'm hoping it will be as fun and educational as this. For me at least, I did learn quite a bit about myself in the past 35 some odd days.

Day 28 asks me to share two photos, one of which is of me last year at this time and one of me in the present space.

This was taken around this time last year. The only difference is I have a brighter hair colour, I worked a totally different job and I was 1,800 miles from where I am now, geographically speaking.


That was the first time I'd ever carved a pumpkin myself. I'd probably seen Ernest do it once when I was younger, but my young uncle caused a lot of ruckus in the neighborhoods we lived in, which caused home damage via pumpkins, toiletries, etc. So we ditched the idea and I for one was terrified of costumed people especially Chuck E Cheese and other "animaled" characters. And clowns, oh man, they were the worst. I've been to the Circus once in my life and it was plenty. I'm hoping I can take my kids one day and show them how to face your fears of the unknown!

This year, I am totally in a melancholic tone. My world is focused solely on my recovery as an addict and taking care of my now terminally ill grandmother. I am in such a different mental mode. Last year I was scared because I wasn't sure about my job, my home life, and all other worries that I encountered. I wasn't sure of anything and this year is different. I am sure that I will not be thrown to the wolves, if not mentally, then physically speaking. I am also positive that I am who I am.

I will not change for anyone, but I do realize I am still growing up. I may have matured in a few ways, but there is a hell of a lot in this world I know not of. I have so much to learn and that scares me but I'm strong enough to brush it off. If people are surprised by my, of what is sure to be many more, first time experiences, I have ruled I cannot let it put a damper on my mood at the time.

I have a right to feel the emotions I please and that is a major difference between this year and last. I felt very humbled last year but also I felt very recluse. I felt that if I had a bad day, I wasn't able to show it. And not because the paparazzi were bugging me, (I wish) but simply because those around me knew I was sinking and felt the need to criticize me for "taking out my feelings on them." In their eyes, I was unable to help them in anyways because of how I felt at the moment. I hate that. I hate that my family, my loved ones could not and would not count on me, even for something as simple as directions.

We were all going through stressful times then but I could not help the situation, I only made it worse. I hope their loves ones will forgive me, and believe that most days I tried my absolute hardest. Even in the end I tried not to stay in bed all day and let my emotion consume me. I doubt I'll be given a 3rd chance to try and recover the past memories. But I simply would like to think that we all did our best, and we managed.

We tried to get 4 beautiful babies, er- kids through a really hard time in their lives and we survived. Somehow we pulled together and they're the better for it. As far as I know, they're dealing really, really well. At times I sob because I knew leaving them was absolutely the hardest thing to do. I knew it would be a long time, deep down, I knew it. I was in such denial about many things. I pray everyday for guidance and I hope they greet me with at least smiles the next time we embrace.

To Abigail, Olivia, William and Julia, I am forever grateful for your existences and I pray the Lord keeps your from harm. I also hope to see you again very, very soon.

All my love to everyone reading and corresponding. Your letters of encouragement are marvelously inspiring.
Blessed be.

Love, Light and Peace,
Jolee Summerville

30DC - Day 25 - In My Bag

If you look inside any young woman's purse you'll find a multitude of items! You might see some makeup, some hygiene products and perhaps a small bottle of pain reliever. Of course many girls do not think twice about what they stuff in their bags these days and they do not think about the people in this world who's filters may be blocked. This of course means that some put there will go into the purse looking for valuables such as jewelry, money and change.
 
I don't think young girls also think about protecting themselves especially when traveling alone or just with a group of friends even. I like to carry pepper spray and a pocket knife with me that also includes some special "survivor" tools. Some girls are sexually active and do not carry proper shields such as condoms or birth control thus leading them into an unplanned pregnancy.

I'm proud to say I'm not at that stage in my relationship with a certain someone as of late. We've both decided it best to take things day by day. It especially works well since we rarely see each other, some times as little as once a week. I don't go out much simply because I have too many responsibilities to think about and I just do not want to be sidetracked by whatever life decides to throw at me. I can't be around dangerous situations although the part of the city I live in is slightly unsavory.

I do my best to stick to work, home and very nearby spots. My guy lives just 5 miles or so from my house so it's really easy for us to meet. We both live in close proximity to our jobs at Arrowhead Stadium so that's also nice as a gas saver and a safety precaution. Unfortunately though, we do have to work late some nights so I worry sometimes when entering my vehicle as I leave. I always lock the doors but I have to manually unlock my door to get in which takes more time obviously than pushing a button.

I'm getting a lot better at paying very, very close attention to my surroundings as I am near or in my vehicle. I do not drink and drive nor do I drive heavily medicated. If I do drink more than a drink though I have friends who will either follow me home, take me home or allow me to crash at their place. I'm very lucky to have been allowed the blessing of safety and I pray that all of you are as well.

So I kind of rambled on about safety but it does all count what's in your bag! Make sure you are aware at all times girls! You're too special to lose! As always, blessed be.

Love, Light & Peace,
Jolee Summerville

Used Karma

Have you ever been through a series of sad circumstances only to realize before it's too late why it happened? Did you then see that all of it happened because you were the catalyst? It hit me the other day that I've lived and I've learned. I've just been contemplating whether or not this is really my doing.

I'm smart enough to see that I put myself through a lot of situations and for good reason. I believe that everything happens for a particular reason or another. I know that destiny has its way with beings and that there is a systematic order to life. It runs in a never ending circle or as I like to say it, "a never ending story!"

In recent days I have had to really focus on my priorities and see that maybe I wasn't wrong in coming back to Kansas City last winter. It in fact, probably wasn't so premature. There were many things that needed to happen in order for things to be the way they are now. I still cannot come to grips with the fact that I duped myself into believing this was for the best but now I am seeing there may have been a totally other reason.

While my life may truly be all about me, everyone's lives are all about them I learned a few years back, I still think that there may be another responsibility I am supposed to take care of before being able to focus all eyes on me. I lost my step-grandfather, Jim, 2 years ago this coming February. He died of single-cell carcinoma, or more specifically lung cancer which spread elsewhere.

Just 9 years ago this November 7th I lost my father figure Ernest, who I mention most times as "my dad." He raised me for 12 years and we were very, very close. I've never been closer to another human other than he and Julie, my Mama J who is not of blood relation to me or anyone I know. Ernie was in fact my first step- grandfather and he took part in the fraud induced by my birth mother. I don't want to get into it too much for fear of opening more cans of worms than I already have in the past ten years.

I digress from my point though in explaining family history. In recent events it has come to light that since I endured my father's death and was rather scathed by the event, I ran away when Jim was re-diagnosed with the same exact cancer just 2 years after being originally diagnosed and treated. I ran as far as my b.m.'s place since there was an invite and because I felt I had no strength to go through another loss.

Now as I said, recent events have brought to light many things. I believe that I was sent here this year to prevent myself from running away again in this time of struggle. This will give me time to reflect on my mental state in the previous events of losing a parent as well as compare the three states. Since this person has known me the longest and vice versa, it will be surprising to me how I take it. Of course we've had our major downs and a few ups so like I stated, it will be shocking or it may not be.

I think it's just the fact that everything is so undeniably undetermined and unpredictable. I'm not sure if I will be shunned or treated with worth during and after the passing. I guess my mantra of taking it day by day and even sometimes hour by hour will remain in full effect. I know how strong I thought I was, and after it's all over I'll be glad to say I made it through, and with how much grace for certain.

I hope this blog finds you reminiscing on your own mental ability to overcome strife! I want to hear about it so by all means post comments or lead me to your own blog.

Love, Light & Peace,
Jolee

30DC - Day 24 - Shameful

On this challenge day I am supposed to share a story about my past. And not just any old story, a story about which I feel shameful about. To imply shame means to me, to imply that one regrets something. I honestly have to say I do not have any regrets about how I've lived my life. Every day and every lesson makes me stronger and wiser.

I wouldn't have it any other way no matter how tough it gets. I know it's all for the greater good. It's the grand design. But there are plenty of things I've done in my life that have granted me the right to feel shamed by them. I have one in mind that I'll share.

I remember that one day I was spending time at my mother's apartment. It was the year of 2001 and several of my many cousins and I were gathered here for a winter sleepover. I believe it was after Christmas day and us girls wanted time together. This was the year we lost my father figure, Ernest to lung cancer. It had been 4 years in a row of losing a member in the family, one a year.

One of these days we ended up playing hide and seek. In the game I was helping Carli, one of the middle cousins whom is younger than I, find her younger sister. I think she had found me and perhaps I was angry at being found? I do remember knowing in which room Kaylee was hiding in but not the exact location.

Carli asked me if I knew where she was and I pointed to the room. She found her sister just a few moments later. The next thing I know Kaylee is shouting that it wasn't fair that I told Carli where she'd been hidden. I'm thinking she saw me point to the room and wanted to tattle, as a lot of children tend to do. I had to explain that Carli asked me where KayKay was and I only pointed in that direction.

I was told I had not played fairly and had to be removed from playing anymore. I don't know exactly why this sticks out. Maybe it is because I don't get to spend much time ever with the girls and now we're all spread out across many states. It's just not a terribly pleasant memory with them and I wish things had gone differently. They all know me as the good girl and they've probably since forgotten this particular incident but I remember it very well.

I'm excited to be getting ready for the holiday season here in super cold Kansas City, even though it's been a really rough year. I would love to be home in sunny San Diego and I have faith my creator will take me back exceptionally soon. I hope you all are doing well and holding loved ones near. You may not have much time left, so make the rest of it you have positive!

Love, Light & Peace,
Jolee Summerville

30DC - Day 23 - Cravings

Cravings is not only an amazing eatery in Los Angeles that I love, love, love to eat at but it is within our human nature to exhibit this thinking pattern. I know a craving is basically a desire. More specifically it is a great yearning for something. And what is it exactly do I yearn for?

I not only get hankerings for food such as cheeseburgers or grilled chicken paninis, I also have desires of the emotional kind as well. My physical cravings often have to do with satiation of the stomach and sometimes I long for someone to press against to when I need intimacy with another. But mentally I often find myself longing for stability. I think we all, at young ages, wish that the waters of life aren't so choppy and things can perhaps be foreseen in some ways.

I do like that life is unpredictable so in that sense I will never get bored. But when those waters become so rough and the sky darkens, I wish the sun would come out and dry up all the rain! I do realize that without sadness and pain there would be no room for compassion. There would be no real appreciation for the blessings we've all been endowed with.

There are plenty of times I look around and I think to myself "How did I get here? How can I get out of this?" And most of those times now I am able to calm myself and change that way of thinking into positivity. I can think, "It doesn't matter how rough things seem, because there is always someplace worse than here. There are people out there dying a harsh death all for the greater good." No matter how lonely or shaky my boat seems to be, I can always talk myself into seeing that I will be just fine.

There will come a day when peace of mind isn't such a conversation to be had but it will come naturally. I hope that for you, peace isn't far. I also hope that your cravings are of a different kind and are attainable. If you ever need someone to listen and not judge you've found a friend in me!

My email is JAtkinsSummerville @ Gmail

Never hesitate to email me if you seriously need a new perspective. I'm always right here. Well, almost always.  I hope these words find you deciding what your craving and how it suits your life. As always, blessed be my friends.


Love, Light & Peace,
Jolee Summerville

30DC - Day 22 - Different From The Rest

(From Sunday. One day late.)
Oh man. I am now supposed to share with you one reason I'm different from everyone else. Well, other than the fact that truly no one out there looks exactly like me... and I think we're all grateful, I do believe that we each have a purpose. Every individual has some reason or another for being and here I don't believe in babies as 'accidents.' I mean, yes, life "surprises" some married people who have not been protecting the uterus from the male's offering but honestly, if you're being unprotected there's a great chance of catching if not a baby then something else for sure.

We have to be careful obviously. And that leads me into the reason I am here. I surmise that I am on this gorgeous Earth to provide assistance to others. It's as simple as that. I do not care whether those in need are old, young, big or little. I have one main goal in life and that is primarily to serve others, within reason of course. I will not allow myself to be used or to be stepped all over figuratively speaking as one would use a doormat.

I want those around me to feel like I am there to hand out comfort, words of kindness and physical assistance when need be. That said, I do try to aim to my targets and not let leeches hang onto me. I will do all that I can do in any given situation to make everyone feel at ease. I do not know exactly what the future holds, but wherever you find me, you'll most likely see me lending a hand.

To all those who need a friend, you've come to the right female.

Love, Light & Peace,
Jolee Summerville

30DC - Day 21 - A Picture From The Day

Well, to be honest I believe I am on time with this post technically. Today's earlier post was actually supposed to be sent out yesterday but this blog doesn't have an option to schedule when they actually tack on. But no worries. I am back on track.

I am going on an adventure today just to the mall to see what I can score for some Christmas gifts. I'm not sure what will be the outcome especially since I'm out of funds for my budget but I like to try and make it stretch. I'm sure a grocery trip will also be needed because I'm going to start really cooking again. I've plenty of Italian inspired dishes I want to whip up!

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I honestly got so excited by Sears' massive sale that I forgot to take countless photos of the amazing products you can find at our local mall! But I managed to snap a few shots coming home from running errands and got a few tree shots. I can't wait to redo this challenge though, so I can do MUCH better!

I ended up making Chicken Cacciatore which turned out really well. I didn't like the chicken mainly because it was tough and ended up tasting like cheap, shredded chicken. And that's what it was. It was a weird brand of chicken which I know sounds odd. Well, and it could have been how I dethawed it and cooked it almost immediately after doing so.

All in all, I have some amazing sauce to put over pasta tomorrow evening. I work all day as a result of the Chiefs being home so I'm excited for that but even more excited to get up to the store to try out my next recipe, Eggplant Parmesan. :)





Now for the not too flattering tree photos. I swear I can take good pictures!





And there ya have it... part of my day represented on this page.What were your days like?

Love, Light & Peace,
Jolee Summerville

30DC - Day 20 - Wishin' & Hopin'

I am having a really rough time with this 3 wishes challenge. Only 3 things I can wish for? Oh well, I guess it's better not to ramble on and on.

My first wish would be to able to release the cure for HIV/AIDs.

My second wish would be to end poverty for as long as the world inhabits living beings.

My 3rd wish would be if I had to die after the next 2 hours, I'd want to watch PS; I Love You one last time!



What would your wishes include? Let me know! Thanks for reading and I hope you're allowed to see your blessings at hand. :)

Love, Light & Peace,
Jolee Summerville

30DC - Day 19 - Nicknames & Such

I have many names that I go by. My original name from birth was Christina Hope Weakley. As a few weeks went by some shift happened within parental units and I was renamed my current legal name which I will not share simply due to the fact that it is, in my opinion, and awful name. I now go by my stage name in which I declared was Jolee (C. Rose) Summerville back in 2004.


I think this is one of my absolute favorite pictures of A.J. 

Many people call me Jol or Jo or Jojo for nicknames. In 2007 a teenager named Albert had decided to call me Lips since I in fact am a major Angelina Jolie fan, hence the new name, and because I have a big mouth he says. I used to get told that I am loud and boisterous. I call it, in the appropriate situation, fun! I also used to have a very authoritative personality, and I still to this day suffer from having bossy tendencies.

I am well known for trying to control something I actually could easily be carefree about. I'm a work in progress that's all I can say!

I hope to hear about your nicknames! Keep in touch and blessed be!

Love, Light & Peace,
Jolee Summerville

30DC - Day 16/18 - With Dreams Intact

I missed days 16-18, so this is my blog to make up for these past few days. I've been amazingly busy with work and nephews! I've so honestly grateful for the past 72 hours I've been given. So let's get on with the days beginning with Day 16 in which I'm supposed to dilvulge what I COULD live without.

I can tell you one thing I can certainly live without but I still indulge in. "Glee!" I am so in love with this show and it's partly because the creator Ryan Murphy created my last addicting television series "Nip/Tuck." Both shows are astonishingly refreshing and relate-able in many ways. Then in other ways you kinda look at each other and check to see if that was really said.


Most of these comments come from Jane Lynch, a hilarious actor on the hit show "Glee."

On Day 17 I'm told to share with whom I'd like to trade lives with for a day and why that is. I think we'd all like to know what it's like to be George Clooney. If you think about it, the man is a workaholic. He works in film and television, he writes, produces, directs and even has time to be an ambassador for the UN as the Messenger of Peace.

I don't know much about his personal life, but I do know he has an amazing group of family and friends. He does a lot of work regarding those less fortunate than he and I applaud him for the courage.



Wow. I think he's stunning. I can't wait to see him face to face!

On the final day, Day 18, I would like to present to you a few dreams I have. One of my dreams is to sail into the sunset with my family in tow, meaning my children and spouse only. And we'd live free from persecution and suffering. Another dream of mine is to help find a cure for cancer and HIV/AIDS.

I hope many of you are doing well in your lives and that you find time for all that makes you smile & remain proud. Blessed be.

Love, Light & Peace,
Jolee Summerville

30DC - Day 15 - Music & Confessions

I didn't finish yesterday's blog in full simply because I slept most of the day and then had many activities to pursue, and one of which I am still continuing. As per usual it's the laundry. I do about 3 loads a week, so I'd say that's lucky. And on this day I'm being asked to put my fictional IPod on shuffle and tell the first ten songs that plays. Yesterday I was asked to do ten confessions.

I'm going to be creative with my fictional IPod (it's actually a 4-year-old San Disk Sansa player, version 2.0!) and combine that with 10 stories rather that go with each random song. This should be very interesting to me at least. So away we go!

I've just turned on the player and the song that first comes up is "3" by Britney Spears. This is probably the song I last listened to before turning the player off. I have just set it to randomize. Now I doubt this thing is smart enough to play, say the most played songs, but we shall see.
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This song is pretty naughty and I didn't really like it when it came out. But it became catchy. It's not her best work, let's be honest. It could be anyone singing!
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So each song will be between 3-4 minutes long. I'm not sure what to do in between "confessions." I'll just check some other websites I guess... 3 minutes and some seconds later... "I'm Gonna Be (500 Miles)" by The Proclaimers is playing! This is such a cool song.

I remember hearing this throughout my life and probably underestimated it most of those times. But as of early 2008 I became enthralled with all things Celtic. Alas, this is one of the songs that came out of this era. I have to admit, I love Scottish and Irish culture! I'll watch "Made Of Honor" with Patrick Dempsey simply to hear Kevin McKidd's accent!
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Heck yes! "Point of No Return" from Phantom of The Opera (2004) is on now. My confession about this is, WHAT A HAWT SCENE, in the film, I mean dazzling. It leads right into "Down Once More/Track Down This Murderer."
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This list just keeps getting better. Of course my MP3 player wanted me to hear "Little Girls" by Oingo Boingo. I learned of this song in 10th grade whilst attending SVCHS in Ramona, California. Marcy had introduced it to me and yes, it's a secret favorite song to dance silly to!
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How about this? A good slow one, "The Voice Within" by Christina Aguilara. This is such a good uplifting song and really spoke to me when it came out. The video is gorgeous.
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Gasp! I love this song. (How often do I say that daily? More than 20 I bet.) "No Other Love" by Chuck Prophet. This can be heard in one of my favorite films "PS, I Love You." The scene in which this song plays in just my favorite from the movie. I wanna be that in love. Hopefully, NOT with a dead husband. <3
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"She take my monay! While I'm in need, yeah she's a triflin' friend indeed. Oh she's a gold digga!" "Gold Digger" by Kanye West. This was back when I liked Kanye West. After his mama died, he kinda lost his marbles. I hope he gets help because many of his songs are great.
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Wierd, I just heard this on the radio yesterday afternoon! "Teenage Dream" by Katy Perry. It took me one listen to like this song. It's so sweet. She has a way with words obviously.
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Okay, so this one I have to kind of tune out of or else, I'll cry. "The Scientist" by Cold Play. It reminds me of my charter high school, which provided me with a home and a family for over 3 years. It was forcefully shut down in early 2008.
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Update 10/21/10 - As like in any normal existence, I got distracted from finishing this post. Oh well, perhaps next month I can keep up with the challenge!

30DC - Day 14 - Food...

Here are some things I ate today...

If you know me, you'll gasp when you hear this. I'm on a cheeseburger binge. Heck, I don't even need the cheese! I'll eat a burger with ketchup, mayo, and tomatoes and pickles preferably!



I don't eat a whole lot of meat. I'll eat turkey bacon, or grilled chicken most of the time. But recently, a burger just became great. It was all I had to eat at Arrowhead Stadium whilst working one glorious day.

And then I found a hidden stash of berry Lifesavers. I had four of them total. And I had some turkey bacon this afternoon with a very small shake from HiBoys eatery.



In just about 11 minutes I'll be writing my 10 confessions, (oh crap) and Day 15's blog! Anyone else want to share their nutrition or lack thereof like me!?

Blessed be.

Love, Light & Peace,
Jolee Summerville

30DC - Day 13 - PS...

How appropriate that this day should ask of me to write a letter to someone about something I couldn't tell them. It's implied that I wouldn't be able to do this face to face. This is kind of a tough task because I simply do not have many people I would hide things from. I would say the hardest part is finding a person I want to tell this thing to.

At this point, I'll make it the young man in my life whom I'm currently seeing. I won't name names for privacy's sake and I doubt he will read this so I'm going to be open and honest. If he does however read it, then let me just say I have no regrets.

Dear Man,
I know you've been working hard and taking care of those around you with ease and maybe some frustration. I do miss you something awful but I know that when the time is right we shall return to one another again and embrace fully. I've never met anyone quite like you, and that you need be rest assured is a good thing. One person in my life as of this moment would say I have a bad judge of character, and I fully disagree. Every friend, family member and lover from the past has come and some have gone for good purpose. You after even a short time with me, have not yet run away. I try not to scare you off but maybe prepare you for the storm that is sure to come. I've tried so hard not to get ahead of myself but I must be honest and tell you that I'm very much indeed feeling closer to you every time we meet. I don't let anyone drive my vehicle, but you do it so well. I never let anyone smoke in my vehicle either, and you respect that. As a matter of fact, I think you've only smoked around me once. I applaud you for your determination. I've not felt actually safe in another man's presence since my father died, and you are the first to break that curse. I sense within you a gentleness and a nonchalant coolness. You seem to understand even if you don't really grasp it yet. And believe me, you need to keep that mystery. I don't know if anyone can handle the drama that surrounds my environment at this point in time. But I have faith in you. And only time will tell if we are meant to spend a great deal of our time together, but if so, I'm glad it is you.

Love, light and peace,
Jolee

PS: Sunday Ticket!

Gerard Butler w/ MSU Spartans (Photos)

I found these photos of Gerard visiting the MSU Spartans just yesterday (Friday) after he talked to Jared Leto and was spotted looking for another NYC apartment. If you are thinking what I am thinking, Doesn't he already have a humongous loft there already?, it's still unclear what happened to it or if he just loves the city THAT much.

Anyways, I could care less what he was doing in the city, but I thought him visiting the guys from Michigan State University while they were indeed watching 300. They were introduced to him and then they took several photos together. Gerard also attended the MSU basketball game but left before the game even started.

He seems to love visiting sports teams during his time off doesn't he? Anyone remember when he was sitting court side with one time costar Adrien Brody and Jeff Katzenburg chomping on McDonald's? Anyways, that's his view of living the dream, so I will not sit here and squash it for him. That's what America is here for right, foreigners to come, take the work and act as if they are Americans?

I think the honeymoon is over, so to speak. But no worries. I still think he's a great actor. And he's really gorgeous, especially with all that new wavy hair. (It looks like "The Cherry Orchard" cut once again, just gelled.)

Here's the normal posed photo


Here's the "Ah-hoo" picture... (He asked them what was their profession. Cute.)


(That poor cutie on the far left with the neck brace... aww!)

And last but not least Gerard with the coach Tom Izzo.


These were all taken from MSUSpartans' 'twitpic' page. I own no rights to them. I figured many people would like to see them!

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend, I'm hoping mine is relaxing as opposed to freaking out over bills. Blessed be, my lovlies!

Love, Light & Peace,
Jolee

30DC - Day 12 - Secrets & Rooms

On this day I'm supposed to share with you my bedroom. I have to point out that there is absolutely no direction or organization to the decorating in my room. It has no style, which can be attributed my lack of interest. I love that I finally have my own room, which I lovingly refer to as "The Princess' Dungeon." Or should I call it a lair?

It does half a half bathroom attached which takes most grooming out of the main bathroom which ONLY I clean once a week, and only use to shower in. I want to point that out, because it should be duly noted that I am the only person who cleans this house. Albeit I hardly vacuum which is pure laziness, but no one else is ever here so I just gave up on that. I feel awful now, so after a long hard day at work today and one hour of nap time, I will be vacuuming when I get here!

This is my room.





My beloved shoes which are filthy from too much wear on the inside, and my super cheaply made bedspread. I have a twin mattress set and one bedspread. But I have 3 sets of sheets, 2 of which are only 200 thread count and bug the crap out of me.

And as for my "secret" of the day, I'd prefer to sleep naked, but alas, these damn sheets don't allow for such freedom. And Fall is here, so it's freezing again. It will take a miracle to get through this winter as I will be prohibited from working at my paid job, and I hate living without the sun. I get very depressed during the winter. Which is PRECISELY why sunny SoCal is my home for GOOD. Screw Missouri and it's conservatives!

I'm so kidding, Missouri has plenty of pros to living here. It is a cheaper than in SoCal, but if you have 3 jobs, 2 of which pay next to nothing and 2 that literally pays nothing, it's still better to live in San Diego. Where people love me and I can stay tan all year round darn it!

Well, here's to getting it done sooner than expected and way on time.

Love, Light & Peace,
Jolee Summerville

30DC - Day 11 - Dislike

On this day I am challenged to show you all a photo of something I dislike. I have to be very careful because I do not want to get any hate mail! We all have our opinions and are free in my country to express them, rightfully so. There are many things I dislike but to pinpoint one really is a tough task.


I'm going to yell what I tell Jackson when he fake cries or basically whines, "You faker!"

There is nothing more than sad than loneliness. I'm proud to use one of the greatest examples of loneliness and obsession from The Phantom as in of the opera. I have seen several portrayals by different actors and I'm going to say it. Gerard Butler is my favorite performer who got the sadness down. Most notably in the All I Ask Of You (Reprise) scene in which he cries over losing Christine to Raoul. He knew she kissed him to save Raoul. Thus he let her go.



He doesn't cry too well in my opinion until the end of the film, but the scene was still moving to me. Especially when he sings "You will curse the day you did not do all that the Phantom asked of YOU!" Then he takes a few months of to write "Don Juan Triumphant" which should have been explored more in the film I believe. After this is when we see him start to lose his marbles. He believes that killing and kidnapping are the only solutions to his pain.

A true psychopath obviously. I feel though that as a budding psych buff I give out more empathy than I should because of his past. This is remarkably told in Gaston Leroux's story "Le Fantome De I'Opera." As well as in Susan Kay's novel "Phantom." Of course every time I reread these texts I see Gerard playing the character!

But that's what I dislike is loneliness. I do identify with this character mainly because I've lived a semi-sheltered life and as a result I've been projected as this naive, vulnerable person. I strive every day to better and educate myself as much as possible. And I believe if you're paying attention you learn at least one new thing every day!

I found this and I cannot find an accompanying interview in which Gerard says the quote, but I do remember him stating on the DVD he cried while reading the script. In his final scene in the movie, he cried as he sings a bit of "Masquerade" with his cute musical monkey. It is believed Erik made toys and made this music box modeling after his time spent in Persia.



So I hope you enjoyed what I dislike the most. I also you Gerard Butler phans will appreciate the effort I put into this blog, since the last 2 I mentioned him were in vain. He's just so marvelous isn't he?

Love, Light & Peace,
Jolee Summerville

30DC - Day 10 - Past Relationship

This day will allow me to tell you about a past relationship. Oddly enough there are several stories but only one comes to mind worth telling. I will tell you about my old friend Terri. I met her one fall day in Ramona, a small town in the mountains of San Diego, California. She was this kinda crazy/mad personality with a lot of strength and perseverance.

I do not have any current photos of her so that is why you will not find one. She was a good friend and she basically did get me a job for a few months. She taught me how to organize and not get overwhelmed by all of the stuff. We had plenty a good time together. After maybe less than a year of knowing the woman she snapped and decided the drama was too much.

I have not heard from her in over 3 years and I deem that appropriate. There are many times I wish she had stuck around, but in all the world I think it's best we do not continue to converse. There was not much she could gain from me being her friend anyways since I didn't especially condone many of her husband's alleged behaviors.

I do remember one day I was feeling so achy from T.O.M visiting me and I don't remember what had to be done that day that was so urgent. But she woke me from a nap on this one day and the kids were not there so I took advantage of that. I wanted a little rest because I was in pain. She woke me up very loudly and said to me that I'd been lazy enough already that day, that I needed to get up and clean that house.

I was well aware of the arrangement I'd had with the renter of the home and our living agreements. For that, I was grateful. It was a fair trade and I learned many, many things from that time. I do look back and see that I could have worked harder, but that is just one of the lessons I learned.

At the end of that day Terri had finally left and I was emotionally upset and distraught. She had kept yelling at me like a tyrant. I indeed felt like Cinderella once more. I went into the downstairs restroom to clean it and I locked the door, trying to catch a break. At that point Julie's son, who was there at the moment, came in and asked me if I was all right and then hugged me. After that naturally, he had begun to hate me, which he tells me often. But I digress, it was a day I'll probably never forget.

I hope she reminisces on that day and thinks of how she would have treated me differently. I for one hold my anger in and take it out on people who I should love, but do not. I am rude to these people who insist on using me for assistance without asking for my opinion on it. There are only 2 who receive the brunt of my anger because I am always angry with those specific 2. No one else on Earth gets that treatment from me and they never will.

I pray that Terri finds peace of mind and perhaps one day we will meet again for tea and a good toke. I wish her all of the best in her business endeavors as I know she would do well, if she just maybe weren't so loud!

As always, and I'll continue to say it, I hope you all share your adventures soon! Blessed be my lovies.

Love, Light & Peace,
Jolee Summerville

30DC - Day 9 - Pride

I can honestly say I have not too many things to be proud of, or rather not too many people. I am blessed with an abundance of 'things' compared to a certain group of millions of refugees. For instance, at the moment I am craving Oreos, but since we are lacking in the cookie department, I opted for early Halloween Milk Duds and salt & vinegar Lays. That may sound like a pregnant woman's idea of a good time, but it's just me being a typical girl being visited by T.O.M.

I am proud of myself for not getting pregnant first of all. Among several others things as well, but that's my main goal. I would like to be financially settled when I start a family. If it happens, or when it happens I'll say, it will be a wonderful miracle. I have not been blessed enough to visit a proper lady's doctor (aka: OB-GYN) as of yet.

I am certainly not proud of my family I'm sad to report. Only a handful of them have taken a step up and realized that responsibility is a good value to incorporate into our daily lives. I'm actually more proud of people I do not necessarily know, or people I've not known for so long.

Like my Mama J, who lives where I used to reside in Sand Diego. She's an amazing performer with talents that extend past acting and singing. The woman can make an enormous amount of giant bubbles, is an expert in hula hooping and not to mention, she is an outstanding care taker of everyone she loves. I'm honored to have lived by her side. I pray one day very soon we embrace again.



She is the first person I am immensely proud of and unfortunately is not blood related to me. Well, unfortunate for me, but very lucky for her and her families. The second person I am very happy with is George Clooney. Yes, you read that right. Ever since I was very young, my father figure, Ernest and I would watch E.R., Dr. Quinn and Cops together. Of course, George has only to do with E.R. oh and Roseanne which we also watched after the news at 9 o' clock.

I must point out that while I am a fan of his acting work, I am ever appreciate of his very demonstrative and hardworking efforts he has shown humanity. He has one of the deepest hearts I've known in an actor. And I only know it from afar, for now. I pray one day that he and I will work side by side, most hopefully while bringing awareness and justice to war ravaged and poverty stricken areas of the world.



There are plenty of people that I admire, but pride comes only so often with me. I literally beam and smile when I mention either of these two lovely civilians. I have learned so much from them and I hope to learn even more with their smart guidance. I've never been so happy or proud to know such wonderful people with loving hearts and brilliant ideas.

I hope some of you will start challenging yourself to see what's really amazing in your life. Every day I am bewildered by what I am showing and reminding myself about. It truly is a blessing to sit here, type and shove into my mouth candy and chips, which I don't do so often. If it weren't 11 pm and I didn't have to get up before the ass crack of dawn, I'd write more, and be drinking a Diet Cherry Vanilla Dr. Pepper, or at karaoke night with Erik (!) but alas, the bed is calling me to find a normal sleep routine.

Good night, good luck, and be blessed friends.

Love, Light & Peace,
Jolee Summerville

30DC - Day 8 - Goals

It is Tuesday, October 12th by the time you're reading this I assume. This means that October is nearly half over already and I've not yet bought one Christmas item. I don't actually even know who to buy for other than my two sisters, Jack, my grams, my nephews, Jackson and perhaps Jaime's family. Hell I can't even spend Halloween with anyone as of right now, because I'll most likely be working.

I'll be dressed up in my best medieval maiden of course, hopefully to pass out candy to some adorable trick or treaters. This means I need to put on a good show, with very little decoration. Ah, if only I had more... oh never mind that. This blog is about goals!

The 8th day in the 30 day challenge allows me to share with you all what goals I have for the rest of this month. This simply means they are short term items, and thank goodness for that. Sometimes I can hardly see past the next hour let alone the next few weeks! Here are just a few of them I can already see popping out of my thought process.

1.) Continue with my healthy journey
2.) Saving more money than I knew possible
3.) Securing a budget plan
4.) Spending more time with people I actually like to be around
5.) Spending less time worrying over things I simply cannot control

Those are just a few mind you, and they change daily. Sometimes I lose sight of my progress because life throws you some loops that you're not terribly prepared for. I'm sure positive though that with the right mind set and the correct dialogue I will make it through the end of October just fine.

And hows about you lovelies? Anyone else have anything exciting or promising on the horizon? Any gorgeous fall weddings to attend? Any babies being born? Any pre-holiday planning going on? Do tell! I look forward to your letters.

As always, be safe, and share the abundance.

Love, Light & Peace,
Jolee Summerville

30DC - Day 7 - Biggest Impact

Day 7 of the 30 day challenge is requiring me to share of a picture of someone or something that has the biggest impact on me.

I can honestly say that yes, I love certain family members like none other, and I love the material items clearly. I posted a whole blog about them. Ha ha. But I have to tell you that there is nothing more moving than a child. In my eyes, a child in need of a stable home, provided with food, clean water and hygiene, is more heartbreaking than a one legged puppy.

(Doesn't the puppy ordeal sound sad too though?)

I'm going to leave this picture the exact size I found it in from Invisible Children's website. If it doesn't disturb you greatly, that thought disturbs me. This child was most likely sold by his father in order to spare all if only some of his female family members from being killed, kidnapped or raped. This same child was probably 6 years old walking miles nightly to find a safe place to hide from the rebels.



Learn more about it. Just Google "Invisible Chlildren" and you'll see more at their wonderful, informative site. I have not yet had the opportunity to work again with this group since 2006, but I plan to greet them diligently in the future.

In another image, I'm inspired by a child embracing the wonderful world and beauty around us. Nature. As pure and innocent as this crazy planet is, the child represents nothing more than obvious delight in the au natural surroundings.



I'm not a mother yet. I plan to be someday when I can actually support my child or children with constant shelter, prosperity and unconditional love and emotional support. I pray you guard your children close, but not too closely for they too need to go out into the world and far away from today raise their own healthy, productive piece of the world.

Until next time, blessed be as always. I pray for the children who are separated from their natural families.

Love, Light & Peace,
Jolee Summerville

Reserved & Wild

I've been noticing through out the past year that while my moods fluctuate with different changes such as the weather, hormones or simply just the environment, there are other factors that influence my behavior. If I read something or see it in a film perhaps, I can get emotional and cry. If I see something happen directly in front of me, in real time, then I might laugh.

My point though is not about the different influences, it is merely about my reaction to any given situation. I am a Leo according to my Zodiac sign which is appropriately fitting even though I was born 4 months early. I was indeed a prematurely born baby on August 1st. I am proud to inherit the lioness characteristics even though I don't always necessarily want to admit it.

It's a fixed sign and it's the 5th sign in the Zodiac. According to Astrology.com (which is my reliable source for this one piece of writing,) I tend to be 'autocratic' which is such a great word for bossiness. And I am likely to "ruffle others feathers. Basically, I can cause quite a stir with my assertiveness and maybe pugnacious opinions.

That said I am also set in my ways and idealistic, most would not consider these to be admirable traits in a female or anyone I assume. But for some reason in many circumstances I find myself inside lately I feel the urge to be reserved and silent. I want to observe. I want to listen as if to absorb something relative to me and my existence.

I am finding it a hazardous struggle between my Ego and my heart. I cannot seem to find a balance with peace and war. There is a need to mettle and be calm all at once. I cannot seem to make heads or tails of the whole darn thing to be honest.

I'm just venting I guess in case someone reads this and perhaps wishes to share their triumphs in this area. Do you feel that others around you such as family or peers have too much of a demand on how you act? Or do you just go with the flow? Do you switch back and forth?

I look forward to hearing from you. Until then, blessed be.

Love, Light & Peace,
Jolee Summerville

30DC - Day 6 - Hobbies

Day 6 means I have to tell you a hobby I have.

noun
-an activity or interest pursued for pleasure or relaxation and not as a main occupation

Okay, I have two of them which relax me so greatly. First, I love to sew beads onto renaissance style 'garb.' I've not tried sewing them onto anything else but dresses, tunics and satchels. But I'm sure it's still remarkably relaxing no matter what I sew.



Second, I love to scrapbook. This is such a fun thing to do especially socially. I love to sit down my cousins and have a scrapbook party with old family photos. The memories never cease to make us laugh or cry and hug even more. It really is such a blast putting together the pages and borrowing ideas from one another.



I especially think in a local community setting such as with church friends is a fantastic way to get to know more about others and simply have a good time.

I still have only one person onto the Challenge so I hope some of you get into it soon! I really want to hear about the facets of your adventures.

Love, Light & Peace,
Jolee Summerville

Autumn Favorites

I wanted to take the time out to spot light two of my favorite things about Fall.

There are many many things I love about this cooler season but my top 2 would have to be boots and tea time. Now tea is fantastic all year round, and my favorite is vanilla chai tea, but then comes that cold weather. And all those calories and carbs in the hot chocolate makes me cringe! Here are some fabulous teas I found which are creative and tasty.

This allows the climber to be steamed as he or she descends FROM your cup!


And for those looking to take a dip in a tea filled jacuzzi, again, they can find comfort IN your cup!


And last but not least, for the organizationally challenged, try out a hanger!


Here are some of my most awesome finds from Puma Lopez. I'm sure they have cheaper versions at Payless or Wal-Mart so I'll be keeping an eye out for ya who are budget challenged as I am!

The Grey over-the-knee boots are simply die!


And these tan ones are simply almost making me drool.


And I know I said two things, but I have to post these faves as well!



The views are spectacular in many areas of the United States.



I'm big on stripes lately. :)

Blessed be, especially all you Autumn babies. My sister has her 3rd son on the way this month!

Love, Light & Peace,
Jolee S.